QUOTE (dayalu @ Mar 30 2008, 09:48 PM)
Why? Because imagining service could easily be misconstrued as actual service or that an immature devotee might reject actual service like preaching, or service to vaishnavas, thinking it lower, to sit and meditate alone.
Those who do that would do it anyway. Those who sit down and meditate on Krishna lila, or whatever, and are not ready for it, will not be able to go on, but will give it up at one point of time. I think that can be said about all kinds of meditation. And despite trying it the other way, through preching, service, and all what is taught in ISKCON, most still give it up. Of those who give up ISKCON, there are some that still keep the meditation on Krishna.
I am not a guru, or a teacher, so I have no need to say what is practical or possible. I can say anything. So I can say - just meditate on Krishna, and all you desire will come to you - without any regard for how to do it practically. I don't need to follow social rules, since if someone say that if I break this or that rule, I will fail, I just don't care. I have already failed all the social rules, so what more failure can it be in the future?
You Dayalu, is different, and I respect you for that, and for following the instructions of your gurus strictly.
What do you say, O faithful Prisni? Does meditation upon service alone satisfy your heart? But without physical associations, in your solitary position, of course, these meditations cannot but be beneficial for you. It is a rare thing, a rare liberated service, but such cases of full smaranam, a kind of samadhi, are mentioned and recognized in the Nectar of Devotion.
I do what Krishna ordains for me, whether it is pleasurable or painful. It is mostly painful, i can say. I have my discussions with my inner Krishna about that. It is either the first stage of insanity, or it really is Krishna, I cannot say. But the inner Krishna argues back about anything and have answers for everything.
I complain that my guru rejected me (and all his disciples) and ISKCON rejected me, what service should I do now?
And Krishna answers by saying - don't worry, give them up, I will give you service, here are you new shoes!
I complain - but the shoes are too big, they don't fit, I can't walk in them?
Krishna - you have to grow to fill the shoes, then you can do your service!
Me - How do I know that this is not insanity
Krishna - Can insanity give you bliss and spiritual understanding?
Me - I don't know
Krishna - look in the insane asylums, do they look blissful, do they have spiritual understanding?
Me - I don't think so
Krishna - so I am real!
(Krishna is laughing at this point)
And so it goes on. What can I do?
So maybe the answer is - don't meditate on Krishna, you'll go mad, you get attached, you fall in love, and then you can never stop thinking of Krishna!